03.18.2007 | 9:58 p.m.
Reach out to me
I am at my end. I'm sick of trying to make relationships work. I'm tired of trying to be logical and reasonable when I just want to cry and what makes sense isn't how I feel. I thought all of my days ahead were going to be wonderful and amazing but they haven't been.
My friends who don't understand me are the ones who keep hurting me. I feel broken. Can't I just feel broken? I'm hurting, why do I need to move on? I'm angry and upset... why can't I be?
Why can I be angry and tell God, the master and Creator or the universe, but I have to hid my truest feelings and worries from feeble humans?
This doesn't make any sense....
I just need a hug and I need to be told that I am loved.
I'm sick of trying to live out this ridiculous image of happy clappy Christianity. It's not real. The fact that we suffer shows that we LOVE! If you don't believe me read Psalm 88. Life sucks sometimes and it doesn't stop sucking for a really long time sometimes.
Whatever.
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