I am sliping into a really sad/strange time in life I think. I am just becoming aware of who I am and I realizing things about myself that I don't really like.

I really want to feel loved right now. I don't think I have an greater desire.

I don't want to be sad right now. I feel like there is little to look forward to. I wonder how God can use me if I am like this.

Maybe my life will serve as a warning to others-- this is how you do not want to live.