08.17.2008 | 2:14 p.m.
Standards
Anyways.... I really am bored. I haven't really seen any friends since I've been home. Julie and I have plans on Friday to go to Darien Lake. However I may have to cancel those plans because I need to be back at school the next day.
Oh wellllll
Sometimes I wish that I didn't have so many standards for my life. Like that I could drink without feeling guilty or go to a club. Things that people my age usually do. I feel like I'm missing out but i know that I really am not... at least I think I know that. I know Julie, Anne, Sara, and Jen all drink and they go out and have fun. I just don't understand esentially what i wrong with drinking. I mean... you lose self control and you do things you never would if you were sober.
So some time has pased. I ate lunch. Bob came home with Sophie. Yeah fun stuffff.
I showed my mom the movie I made the other day with all of the clips from me and my friends.
I really can't wait until Cassie and I get to got to Spot coffee and have our Saturday date!
7:13 pm
Lalala... I am only writtin gbecause ave nothing else to do.
I wish I was good at science.
I really wish that I could think intelligently. I mean I can understand philosophy and people and religion. But I can't ever remember formulas or anything like that. I never understood why I couldn't. I mean there is no real reason. I am just not good at remebering things period. I wish there was something I could do about that. An exercise or a vitamin. I should look into it.
10:30 pm
Another thing I would like to change is my weight. I weigh 160. I want to weight 125. That is 35lbs. I plan on working out everyday and eating better than ever.... even on college food. How about I try to lose twenty-one pounds by my twenty first birthday. I wrote a note for myself.
We will see how it goes. I plan on working out everyday. My earliest class is 10am. Maybe I will switch between doing aerobic and anaerobic exercises everyday. I could lift one day and run another. But I would really rather run. I hate lifting.
Dear Jesus,
Help me to lose weight and beginning to live a healthier lifestyle. I want to live my life for you but I am having trouble. (No surprise.) Help me to learn how to be more like you. Thank you Lord for always being with me. You protected be before I even knew you. Please don't abandon me. Help me to find my place in a church so I can finally be ordained in ministry. Please confirm my call to ministry. Help me to become more like you.
When I go back to school help me in my studies and help me to manage my time and help m eto regularly spen time with you Lord. I really want to be more disciplined with life in general.
Help me Lord.
Amen