It's true that when I feel alone and abandoned it is when I feel distant from God. So my distant feeling is causing me to feel alone, unarmed, so vulnerable. I think a lot of this has to do with not being able to pray or not wanting to pray or not knowing the true power of prayer.
I really don't know how powerful prayer is. I wish that you would reveal it to me. Jesus show me the power of prayer and how to pray. I do not know how to.
Jesus I need a mentor. I need someone to help me. Maybe Jesus I just need more of you. I need to fill my thoughts with you and your will. I don't know what to do with myself Lord. Please be my guide. Please do not abandon me anymore Lord.

RETURN TO ME AND I WILL RETURN TO YOU.

And these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

I Covet all three Lord. The gift of faith, the gift of hope, and the gift of love. Let me be a healing merciful one who loves unsparingly, and irrevocably. Help me to be the kind of servant you want. You are more than enough. You have delivered me from so much pain and hopelessness............. I praise you alone.

You may not like him but you must admit that Dumbledore's got style.